April 29th 2009 was when I started my Fit n 40 quest. How did I go? Well, I gained strength and fitness so I definitely gained some health. I even managed to play softball again. I went from doing circuit training to lifting heavy weights… and then somehow, somewhere, I managed to do a knee injury. I delayed going to the doctor’s which was really quite silly as my health and fitness started to decline. I went in and had my knee operation and then the long recovery and re- strengthening process began.
I’ve not been real well lately – physically and mentally. I’m headed to a dark place where I do not want to go. I’ve been there before and I’m headed there again. Yes, my iron and B12 stores are very low. My cardio fitness is near zero. I have no strength and no motivation for anything. I do not want to go back to that place again. I’ve been very tired lately (iron and B12 deficiency kicking in) and not pleasurable company. I’ve been stressing over every thing yet not able to be proactive about the things causing me stress.I do not want to go back to that place again.
I’ve been planning to do a fitness program at home but it’s getting cold and we don’t have room and… and … and … well, you get the idea. It’s all too hard. Finances have prevented me from going back to the gym. But I know that my mental state is connected to my physical state. I can work on the mental state but unless I also work on my physical state I am fighting an uphill battle. This, I have learned through experience. Another thing I know about myself is that I am not likely to feel more positive and better as the next few months roll on. I hate cold weather and I feel the cold starting to bite at me and it’s only May. Cold is just another reason for me to stay inside, hibernate and go further down that hill.
Today I made a decision. And I acted upon it. No more procrastinating or reasoning.
I joined the gym again!
I start tomorrow. I know I’ll have to manage my knee properly and I realise that I can’t just pick up where I left off (speaking as to the state of my fitness) but I am going to start at the beginning again. I have to. For me. For my man. For my children. For my home. For God, so that I can serve others to His glory.
It’s a long road back again… B12 injections, iron supplements, vitamin/mineral tablets, water intake and food intake but I am determined to get healthy, fit and strong again. Hey, I did it once I can do it again. Right?